I have no idea why i placed that quote that i got from a piece of chocolate that i ate as my topic. Maybe i am feeling lonely. Maybe i do wish to have a family of my own. A loving husband. *laughs* Maybe i should really start praying for a happy and blissful family.
The road ahead is so uncertain.
Promises...Why do i always get myself into such situations? So many have let me down with their promises. Now, a certain somebody told me, "there will be things that i cannot and will not say as they will only lead on to promises which i cannot keep."
WHY??!!! Why me? What have i done to deserve this? I really see myself walking down the road to destruction. I have given up hope. Right now, i just feel like going to club and go back to those days whereby i drink till i drop. The days that i used to gallivant. Used to have fun.
I want to numb myself......i need to...i have to... I hate all of you!! I really hate all of you!!!
-iWrote 5/07/2008 10:44:00 PM
DifferencesIt only feels like a week to me since i last blogged but in fact, it has been almost a month. Time flies for me but for some others, it just stands still. I am not sure if it is a good or bad thing. But at least some times, it tells me that i have to move on. I have to think about myself.
Others say that i have changed. Maybe i have. Maybe i have not. But one thing that i do know is that i am no longer as naive and gullible as i used to be. This life does not have space for such a person. Everyone has an agenda. Sometimes, we are all just playing a game but somewhere down the road, we all forgot that it was a game and become too serious about things. That, is where things start to go wrong or even ugly. But there is a game that i wish it is not one. Unfortunately, i have to tell myself that is it and make myself believe it more and more each day. For if i do not, i have no idea what will become of this game. I wish things were not like this. But we do not always get what we wish to have. That, is life.
Oh well..it is time to go pack my bags again.
-iWrote 5/01/2008 07:03:00 AM